Maybe....

Can't thing just be simple?...

Maybe I really should do wat I mentioned to Jo....

Maybe that will be a better way...

Maybe I'm really selfish....

Maybe i tink i'm too wonderful whr ppl will fall for me...

Maybe the person did not....

Maybe he got someone in mind rather than me...

Maybe I'm just a smokescreen...

Fine... although this is short but still have to let go...

Letting go now is better for me to let go after another 6 years

Yesh... jus let go... it will be pain... but will only be a short while...

Just hope I can do it... just let holiday be here faster...

Holiday I will be tooo busy of think of anything.

Just feel like crying.

12th July

我很生气也很难过
为什么我总会陷进单恋的沼泽中，无法脱身呢？
我一只尝试要和他说话但换来的是等待无回因的不明简讯。
我就这么不值得你回应吗？

我到底在你的心里有着一席 之地吗?
为什么我老是这么不堪，
为什么老是在望着一个可能永远不会到自己身边的人。
6年的教训还不够吗?
为什么又要重倒复彻呢?

我的心情几时才会有回应呢?
不晓得你是不是误会，但那天的哭泣不纯粹是因为那6年，
是我心情真的很乱，可能是因为想你。
但我没跟你说，因为当时我也不知道我对你的心情。
我好傻，一只想你会有用吗?

11th July

I really cant slp.... have beening thinking of some issue recently...am i really that flowet heart whr by i can fall fpr someone right after next?

Mani people ask me to give up on him all these years and now i really gave him up... i dun want to know if he have had any feeling for me before.... i really dun wish to knw as the ans is not impt anymore...this time is a really goodbye and lets be just frens. Frens will be forever. I will not hope for anything anymore... even if he come to me nw and say 'let us be together' i will tink twice... val says sth tht i really agree on... he is those person whr by they wan or dun wan they also wont say out de... true...i know him too well.. he wont say... so wats the time point of waiting..... jus say bye!!

Nw new problems arise... very nice i tink i'm walking back on my old path.... jus so stupid... i'm jus sooo stupid.

A super duper sianzz day....

Hai.... today really got no mood in doing work... how??!!!! Although ah Heng and Giselle is at my house studying but... hai i really still no mood.....

Have been checking if i received any msg... but this sux... no reply!!! jus simple qns and he jus dun wan to reply!! Fine! What for waiting for a nv coming reply... so stupid of me... I tink i jus like to do things that is stupid....hai~!

When will the someone who need me and cherish me appear???

the 2011 me...

Honestly speaking I tink no one will want to read my blog... cos I dun wan to read it neither.... whenever there is a post means that I have some unhappy or troubled stuff... After the hurting Friday I really dunno what am i doing till now.... all my heart and mind is tangled up... can someone please help me untangle.... last fri i cried on my way home from NLB... damn pai say and tht is really the first time i felt so sad... the feelings is messy.... i slept whole day on tue as my mind is still so messy and dun wish to get up...

Ytd me jojo and val wan for a walk @ the esplanade region... I asked jojo u know wat am i troubled about? (cos i dunno how to open my mouth and tell her wat i was troubled about..it is really ridiculous...) and guess wat JOJO said my messy tots out just like tht!! Oh my god! i really dunno hw she know my feelings but damn it! that is what i've been thinking on.!

The issue really ridiculous... and on the way home jojo ask me a qns.... do you tink 6 yrs of feeling will because of someone 6 days and you become confuss???? I was damn shocked to hear that..... i can feel heat going up to my face.... and next moment jojo say...u r face is damn red...!!

For all these time i dun want to admit that i actually LIKE that guy... Oh my... I keep telling myself he is jus a very very very good friend of mine and that i have NO feeling more than fren to him... OMG and what now!! i really dunno how to facce people nw!

Can someone tell me what should i jus do? hide from the someone until we have holiday and we wont be meeting??! this is jus so so so... not me!!! my 6 yrs jus gone like that OMG!