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Hi all visit http://www.natsu-shop.blogspot.com/ for their new pre-order mask!!! They purchase it directly from taiwan and the order will end on 10th october.... hahah Val place order of 5boxes from them le... so cool.. with them u can also purchase single mask to try out nt like u have to buy whole box... but of cos whole box is more economic la...

I personally love the Q10 mask alot... haha....

How Long can I deceive myself??

不久前做了一些事情以为可以转移视线但并非如此……心里的郁闷不停的拥上来~胸口一直是紧紧，不停的愁痛。

现在虽然拼了命地演示起来，但我不知道何时，这件事又会被谁，在什么情况下被揪出来……让我再一次去思考这件事情……可能在别人的眼里是很容易可以解决的事，但对我而言我就是没那个勇气。所以一直不能有个结局。可能我真的会孤独一生吧……因为思考的事情真的真的太太多了。

究竟能骗自己骗多久呢？每人知道…… 继续微笑吧~！可能笑得越开心表示我心里的结越乱越痛苦吧！

The unusual me~~

I think I am really not the usual me these few days~ perhaps is after THT day! oh my god.... really don't like the me now. How can I cure this! this is really really making me crazy... can't my brain just function properly?

Anyway today was actually fun while having tropical breeze only have me, sze jin and bertram.... actually should be doing housekeeping but we started with coffee making AGAIN!!! hahaha.... I made toffee nut Mocha haha kinda too sweet so I make it into a double shot whaha.... I can't really tasted sze jin's caramel coffee cos mine was too SWEET so can't taste anything after drinking it.

On the way home, got msg from yin jie to be informed that nam ho wanted us to go for an interview on 2nd Aug... have to tell Imelda liao... cos my due date should be 30th July wor....

Reached home, rest a while, play facebook's games and went out with bro and mum for dinner and bro meeting his friend to pass him something...haha finally get to eat my longing Tomyam soup.....reached home again around 10pm... watch tv and then bathing and during bath time suddenly feel like to spend time with my hubby so too out hubby and practise for an hour...... only prac one song need me 1 hour and still can't play thru WITHOUT ERROR!!! F***, my skill really gone down drain liao!! Got to prac it back!!!! hopefully i kept to my word! i hop i can spend time with hubby tml again!!! but today prac was good though.... cos i tink cello and me now really is together... dunno y jus got the feel.... after practise is like climbing hills or running sia.... jus damn tired...

Kinda influence by sze jin and here is me writing blog!! haha.... tml going sch early hopefully can get some stuff done.... if not stay at home really dun feel like doing anything...

Good nite~~Natsumi Signing Off =D

I know i dunno

感觉好烦哟~~~心情不好……一直在想那件事情~一直根根与坏……应该开口吗？但都守着那么多年的事现在说出来好吗？但我是女生耶……hai~~~~

如果那件事情是真的那我怎么办？？？？？？？？？？？？？？？？好希望是假的但是没有理由说谎啊~~~！！！

WHAT THE HELL

Hi world i am a forgetful gal and i am still a student in MDIS a uni student where most of our projects will be accumulated and have to be done within few weeks and i still have got other commitment like tuition and family, orchestra practice and also the most unwanted ADMIN WORK from SOMEWHR~!!!!

What is the hell this world is going~! me being in the middle is @ wrong all the time for not tell who and who about wat and wat... i dun have whole day jus to do ur stuff ok... although i dun need to pay $$ for doing what i like but i dun tink i need to commit my entire life rite? frens around me kept saying jus quit but is really really the onli responsibility to hold me thr. being in a formatting state we stood thr with some of the really loyal members.. even little mingsheng stand up against his mum that he wan to stay the this orchestra but look wat we have been pushed to? bringing in the new teachers we a big project to us too... we r still young with lack of experience in life but y we do all this?? is jus to enjoy music nt FUCKING admin stuff where i have to stay out of my sectional. i know i am not good in admin and HR but wht can i do? U tink i wan to be the chair of the co myself? i cant even take care of myself hw can i take care of the whole group of ppl?? this is nt sch that i can control all things by force~ there is no one i can go to to solve all these admin and irritating things, people u go to will jus treat u as a ball and start rolling to one and other.

ya i know my teacher take money of cos mus do stuff for u all but can u all jus notice in advance? advance dun mean 1mnth~ becos 1mnth onli got 4 sundays~ and practicing song is nt like learning abc ok... we can onli come together onli on SUNDAYS FOR YOUR INFOR IF U ALL DUNNO~! and say we can do solo whr u all dun demand whole trope... but my group dun put solo as piority ok... solo is onli practice when we have TIME whr our sectional is 1h30mins and same for combine. maybe for cello is ok but what we prac is nt relenvent for chin-nas event ok~ so solo player use their own pocket to go for lessons jus to play for YOUR PERFORMANCE if u all dun wan us so much jus disband it~!!!!! if wan to make me say tis out i tink this situation is really bad already! saying alot support given but we dun see ANY... what i know is THE CHAIRMAN HAVE TO REQUEST, THE CHAIRMAN HAV TO TYPE REPORT, HAVET TYPE PROPOSAL U TINK I DAMN FREE IS IT~ THE CHAIRMAN THIS TIS THT THT. CCB.

I NEVER GET SO WORKED UP IN MY ENTIRE LIFE OF ORCHESTRA onli after being in the commitee~ i dun blame ppl entrusting me duty for com. but is the management tht is idiot!!! if u wan u can do a SOP (STANDARD OPERATING PROCEDURE) OUT IF U WAN I WOULD BE HAPPY ENUFF TO FOLLOW STEP BY STEPS~!!!!!!

(sorry to vent my anger here i also dunno what am i saying.... jus ignore it if u dun wan to read it I'M FINE)

Where can I get back the feel

....A tired day today...... Too tired to think therefore din't contribute much in the group project discussion..... I tink I was too tired because of yesterday's tuition and also night orchestra practise in teck ghee cc....

Yesterday tuition was fun although spent more time in Kaven's house but I think we are more closer now and to hear student saying "I hope I can go Hongkong after thursday's tuition" as he was going for holiday on wednesday thus no tuition classes for next week... It's only the 2nd lesson and he said that, i felt really so warm... can't believe that I am now someone's teacher....It really feels good and fulfilling hearing kids calling you teacher.

Yesterday's night practise is normal.... but I din't stayed back to have coffee with the other members as I was really too tired.

Today woke up and manage to finish typing the task for each concert post on my lappy and after orchestra prac, i rush over to cathay for project meeting without lunch but manage to grab a curry puff in starbucks~ although it is the most affordable food in starbucks but I think it is way too expensive as I'm now saving up for travelling or perharps to have cello lesson again with Mr Poh.

Orchestra is growing week by week... but i seems not to have any strength in doing orchestra work (which i will always out it in 1st piority in the past) neither school work.

I kept pondering over "Am I on the right track?", "What I really want in my future" but now I don't see any light in front. What kind of job suits me? why i choose to study in tourism? why din't I go into NIE when i love teaching and love kids so much? althought i dint hate tourism sectore but why i just doesn't have a strong passion in teaching or music? Being a cello teacher once passed my mind but it was put down quickly as i always hear people saying it is not a easy path. For me I think road is all not easy but how hard it is compare to creating passion or giving up passion.....

Seriously I dunno what i'm writing maybe someone can tell me.... but stuffs just passed my mind as i typed so I'm now jus a typing machine but not me controlling..........

Anyway... got to start with group work now as it is not individual work which i an responsible for myself......

Damn sian sia~

kao....wat a boring session sia..... early morning still have to wear formal with blazer..... the weather so warm!!!! nw using my hp to type in post dunno hw will it turn out to be as the layout for handphone might be different....

Today damn suay too.... my heel spoiled le la!!! need to call bro bro to help me get another heels to huiguan dunno will he forget or nt if forget then i no need perform liao la......hai~~

The number of BAGS that i have~~

Hahaha long time dint post blog post liao~~ that day I was tidying my closet of bags and counted how mani bag i actually have? *cos i seems to have lot where i can change as and when i like haha* so after throwing some unwanted bags i counted what i left and found out~ WOW~!!! i actually got 42 BAGS!~!!~!~!~ OH MY GOD~!~! so Amazing sia~~~

i told my mum abt it then she was saying~~ u la~ keep buying and buying she remark, i tink the bags u have for ur own is even more than the ones u selling ar~~ hahaha but i tink is kinda true maybe next time i can check how mani bags i left for selling...

Bye2 for now~~!!!

The Emo me

今天心情有点低落……不晓得为什么但就是由无数的感慨。时常在想自己在这个世界上的意义，到底为什么要来到这个茫茫人海又复杂的无知世界。对!我是很自卑的人但到底是什么因素导致我的自卑感常常的作祟呢？*叹气* 时常在想到底这个世界上会有几个人会真的记得我呢？我的生存价值到底是什么？真是自寻烦恼的家伙呀。写了这些又有什么用呢？我看都不会有人来看我的部落格吧。只能用来催眠自己的就只有我那不离不弃我的老公~可能是他是死的巴哈哈，但他的确是我唯一的精神支柱。